Dizzy

Oh man what the hell is wrong with me...

I arrived at Gilmore station after work and I saw that a train was arriving. I decided to run up to the platform and got into the skytrain in time. No seats, but that was to be expected at around 5:30. I thought everything was fine as I waited for my body to slow down. I'm not sure if the train's motion compounded the problem but my breathing wasn't slowing down. My chest felt like a ton of bricks and my head started to feel dizzy. I was suffocating; the air inside the train was stale and sour. I felt like I was on the verge of collapsing. I needed air! When the train stopped at Lake City Way, I disembarked.

My head was held in a vice. The world around me seemed to be out of phase. I was watching a TV set that was tuned to the wrong settings. The screen is of static and rainbow coloured noise, and it was slowly fading into a veil of white. I walked along the platform, desperately trying to orient myself, hoping my body can maintain its dominance over gravity. I realized that walking is not helping; I needed to sit down. I thought about pulling out my phone and calling 911. There was a Korean mother with her son on the only bench on the platform. I can feel the dizziness taking over. I pushed myself further and sat down on a ledge next to the glass wall of the station. The escalators across from me looked like a fuzzy mess; I felt like a bum.

I closed my eyes and held my head in my hands. Was this going to work? Am I going to pass out? I was scared. I was desperate. As I opened my eyes again, I could see that my vision was returning. The world is no longer like an overexposed photograph. I took out my water bottle and sipped while I remained crouched against the glass as I waited for the next train. I felt immensely relieved, thought it was not enough to wash away all of the fear. I didn't realize how absurdly out of shape I was until this moment today, and I must not let this go on through summer.



On a lighter note, today marks the beginning of the end of yet another DRM system:
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